oh the drama!

so i realize that i have been neglecting my blog for about two weeks now. again, i can only use the excuse that **i no longer have a job** and am therefore rarely on my computer. granted, i now have an iPhone, so i actually have this blog at my fingertips, but i **really** hate typing on that phone. my fingers are too fat and i'm constantly missing the buttons on the touchscreen when i'm trying to type, so words end up looking like jibberish or misspelled russian vocabulary. and so, as i am bored and waiting on a phone call from **my man,** i will type.

[note: the letter I on this keyboard is shifty and i'm having to press it extra hard; therefore, some words that are supposed to have an I just may be missng it (like that word, which i purposefully didn't correct to prove my point). so place the I were it goes and get over it.]

so i dd say "my man" in the frst paragraph. i am hesitant to mention too much about hm because i really am **scared of jinxng the situation** before i'm entirely sure about it. what i can tell you is that i am **extremely** happy wth him and that he treats me better than anyone else i've ever dated. not only that, **my family absolutely adores him.** especially my parents. they want me to marry hm; i'm not in a hurry. i am smply enjoyng our time together. he went wth me to arkansas on mother's day weekend to surprse my mama up there on her day [she was up visiting my sister and her famly] and he fit right in. i call him t-mac. and for now, that's all i'll say. **just be happy that i'm happy;** heaven knows i need happiness after my last "relatonshp" wth d-wade.

what else? oh yes . . . i am looking into a job wth a contracting company n germany. it would be a six-month contract and the pay is great. i am crossing my fingers i get this positon, and i need everyone to cross their fingers for me, also. the great thing is it's a contract that i can either re-up or not after the 6 months are up. and snce i've never been outside of the united states **excluding brief drves through canada and mexico which really don't count** i really hope i get ths positon. if i get it, i will leave in june, but will be home in time for thanksgvng. so everyone wish on stars, cross fingers, knock on wood and all that other superstitous crap people do n hopes that i get it. **i really need this.**

i can't really think of anything else going on. i've had an extremely dfficult time lately trying to get motivated to work out. **hell paso just completely screwed me over.** i have prolly snce ganed 5 more pounds than i last reported and honestly, i'm scared to get on the scale in the morning. the good thng about workng out now is that i have a workout partner in t-mac. however, he's about as motvated as i am at the moment, so it makes it doubly hard to go back. we're hopng tomorrow is the start of our workng out routine. **i need ths.** cuz as happy as i am wth t-mac, there is no guarantee it wll last; i refuse to be the fat grl looking for a man. i want that vee! another thing for you people to cross your fingers and wish on stars for **clarificaton for kevin: you're wshng that i fnd motivation, not that i become the fat, single girl!**

sadly, i really can't thnk of anything else to write about. how pathetic is it that the last two weeks of my lfe have been reduced to a few paragraphs? i guess i could talk about my list of pros and cons between the blackberry and iPhone and how even though the **blackberry is winning,** i will keep my iPhone simply cuz i have scrabble and tetris on it. but that's not at all interestng. i did do a bt of yard work over the weekend; planted flowers and whatnot. i thnk they're pretty but in all honesty, t-mac did all the work. all i did was pck out the flowers and the whskey barrel i wanted them to go n. he did all the rest, includng repottng my roommate's plant that is on the verge of dying cuz he's determned to save it. he even mowed my lawn (and my parents' lawn) for free **see?!?! i told you he was great!**

however, for now, that is all i wll write about. it's just about tme for bed and t-mac wll be callng me in a few minutes. so for now, i say, **the sun has gone to bed and so must i; goodbye!**

Hints, allegations & things left unsaid . . .

So I haven't blogged in a whole minute. I have no real excuse to be quite honest. I'd say I've been busy at work but that would be a lie since I **have no job anymore.** I just finished unpacking my suitcases I've been living out of since I got home from Hell Paso **two weeks ago.** I feel like that's quite an accomplisment, to be quite honest. I still have a huge action packer to unpack but at least I got the shoes out of there. Still need to do laundry. I was looking at my laundry basket the other day and was wondering why it always is full. And when I say always, I really mean it. As I pondered this phenomena, I looked down and realized I was wearing my fourth outfit of the day. **and it was only noon.** Ha!

In other news, I got an iPhone yesterday. I won't get into details about how I procured this particular phone but I must say that **I am completely in lauve with it.** I have always been a staunch BlackBerry fan, to be honest. I have been crazy about my Pearl since I first got it awhile back. But I converted to the iPhone and I'm ashamed to say **I'm a believer** of all the hype now. Matter of fact, I'm blogging from it now! It's amazing. The best thing about it? Scrabble! Yep, on my phone. **Super awesome!**

Gonna start back at Barnes & Noble this week since I got laid off from my main gig. Told them I wouldn't close, though. Hopefully I'll get a few day shifts a week. Best thing about that? I still have my discount. Used it tonight, as a matte of fact! I love that store.

One day soon I'll share more good news with you. **Really good news.** But for now, I'm going to bed. Hitting the gym early tomorrow. Yay!

lucky number 13?

so yesterday was my first day back at the gym in . . . well, in forever. i left for hell paso determined to continue working out out there. got to the gym there, however, and had different plans. you see, i am a very picky person. i hate small cramped gyms and cheap gym equipment. that's how the gym there felt. and not only that, i was working long hours. basically, **a bunch of excuses** as to why i didn't work out when i was there for two months.

so yesterday i went to the gym and was actually scared to get on the scale. in those two months, i knew **i had gained weight.** i knew it because a) i was no longer exercising; b) i ate like crap; c) my clothes are all fitting tighter than i'd like. so i decide to just go for it and step on the scale. and then i almost fainted.

**THIRTEEN POUNDS**

i couldn't believe that i had gained that much. i will say that knowing i have that much weight to lose all over again made me mad at myself and helped push me to have a better workout. i have a **new workout partner,** also, and that's great cuz he's helping me push me, too. when i looked in the mirror, i could tell i had gained weight. the workout clothes that were loose on me before are now a little tighter than i'm comfortable with. but i'll wear them anyway. it will only remind me of the weight i've gained and the weight i need to lose!

i also have a great support system in my family . . . **especially my sisters.** we try to encourage each other throughout the day with text messages and facebook comments. i am hoping that this weight comes off me pretty fast. just means i have to get back into eating healthy again and making healthy decisions, as i like to call them.

**wish me luck**