jobs, school and clothes

so i guess i haven't really written anything on here in quite awhile, so i thought i'd update this thing while i'm sitting here at work, doing a whole lot of nothing. it's kind of a chill day here today because half of my co-workers are leaving for el paso on monday. everyone is just kind of visiting and hanging out because those who are leaving have the day off tomorrow **and get paid for it.**

so as everyone knows, i started my job this past monday. i feel like a complete idiot and i'm not entirely sure i am even qualified for this position. however, i typically catch onto things rather quickly, so i'm hoping that **all of this will click at some point** and i will just get it. i am going to go out into the main office today to study and to try to get a bit of help from my supervisor since he has been working with this program for at least 3 years. he is one of the co-workers who leaves on monday, so that kind of sucks. he is full of knowledge on this system and he's also one of the only people who talk with me here. i must say that i find that awfully peculiar -- or perhaps i should say typical -- because i work with a lot of women. women don't like me. and none of them here talk to me. i say "good morning" to all of them each day, and they all mumble the same back to me, and look at me with a look of contempt. i don't know what that is all about, but i just try to ignore their callousness and have a good day. whatever, right?

in other news, my beau lost his job :( he was hired and three days later they put him and the other new guy in the academy to work on the same program that i am working on. he had to take a certification exam at the end of the class and failed the exam by one point. when i spoke to my supervisor about it, he said that **one and a half weeks in an academy to learn this entire program is not enough time to learn it** and that he didn't feel it was fair to either of the new guys that they were let go. that made me feel a bit better about everything and i relayed the message to my beau.

he and i have been talking for awhile about the both of us **getting back into school and finishing up our degrees.** now that he is unemployed, he and i discussed him going back and we feel like that is a good decision. he registered at CTC yesterday and is getting his stuff together for classes. the GI Bill will pay for his schooling because he served in the marines, and they will also be paying extra because he was in the armed forces on or after 9/11. i am really excited for him to get back in it and get going. he has big plans, and i know he will reach all his goals.

funny thing i have figured out about work and the business attire: a woman can pair ANY shirt she wants -- t-shirt, tank, halter, etc. -- with a blazer, nice pants / skirt and heels, and call it "business casual." **i am in love with that policy.** today i am wearing a somewhat dressy t-shirt, but to be honest . . . it's a t-shirt. has a little flower on it in the front with a scoop neck. paired it with a white blazer, blue pants and camel boots. everyone has told me how great i look today. i think that that is awesome.

**time for lunch, though.** maybe i'll write more later this afternoon.